I’ve been sitting here for at least an hour watching A do gymnastics in his crib while he should be napping. And I’m straight up legit pissed. I’m pissed he was up at 4:45am this morning AND SHOULD BE FREAKING TIRED FOR GOD’S SAKE! I’m angry that he won’t just lay down to go to sleep. I’m mad that my only time this afternoon I’ve squandered doing for other people instead of myself. Oh and did I mention that I’m tired? So tired.
When is it ok to be mad at your baby? Is it ok to ever be mad at your baby? Never has my anger crossed over into physical violence. B and I aren’t opposed to an occasional spanking in the future, but not right now. But I have raised my voice. I have swore. I have even thrown tantrums of my own while out of A’s sight. Being a mom sometimes makes me want to stomp my feet and just scream sometimes.
I feel like there is this pressure for moms to be perfect all the time. To never lose it.
Am I the only one that loses it sometimes?